Behind I leave bad days, as I think week ends are bad. They mean lots of thinking, doing, staying at home, leaving home, meeting lots of other people who like me try to are sense of chaos. And spending money.
As a response to week ends, I am developing a habit of living Mondays to the full. This means doing more than enough work, cooking, meeting colleagues, planning big things. And shopping.
Today is Tuesday and I feel knackered, uninspired, I did not sleep well last night. And it is not the first time that this happens.
Maybe there was too much excitement yesterday. Maybe I cannot live Monday to the full.
Tuesday. I am lying on bed after a hard few hours of work. I made the mistake of adding a couple of favours to friends on my agenda. I feel I am giving too much.
I also feel that I cannot go back to life as it was again, before my twins, before my condition.
What should I do? Forget about friends, about work, about saying yes, about being a super human? Should I just forget about life?
Watching football has cheered me up a bit, and wife has helped by letting me lie in bed for a while.
Thank God she is here. Thank God she slept better than I did.
Thank God it is sunny outside. I met my neighbour, we had a nice chat.
I do not want to go back to life as it was again. I only want sleep in my life.
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