Relief and Direction

End of year celebrations are over...thanks God! 

Did not feel particularly excited about end of year. 

I prepared somewhat for celebrations.

I had nice days when we visited or were visited by friends.

I survived days of silence and questioning.  Days of isolation too. 

But it was a lot of energy being spent. 

It was a difficult year and I am glad I found good help to overcome my anxiety as a perfectionist dad.

My anxiety takes over when I want to boardthat imaginary boat of happiness.

The one in which no matter what I do or achieve, it's never enough, because I think other people are doing much better.

Luckily two weeks of rest do the trick of making me feel OK

Having rested I feel a sense of relief, a sense of direction. 

I feel I am ok. 

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